望了望过去自己所写的post，总觉得自己真傻。老是写一样的东西。。。
自己看了都觉得好闷。
天真的我，或许都过去了。心中还是五味杂岑，但是人的心是无底洞，拥有了却要求更多。

社交网站真是一个好地方，可以随时随地与久违并遥远的朋友联络。
但是，它却勾起了我羡慕、妒忌的心。

我想，我的心愿是可以和好朋友一起到外国旅游。

才没有几天。。我就开始想你了。
一直在担心你，一直在想没有对你说的话。
其实我可以做得更好的，只是一直以来，是我刻意不去做。。
原因很简单，也很复杂。

你的悲伤，我不能和你一直承担。
而这是我最难过的原因。
因为我永远忘不了，你在我怀里哭泣的那一瞬间。

对不起。

我不长大，因为你。
因为有你依靠，有你照顾，有你疼。

我该长大，也因为你。
因为你的鼓励，你的劝告，你的提醒。

是时候，长大了。
我，其实正在长大了，只是不愿意。

你想了解的爱，其实我了解。
是我不对，因为我没有让你知道，也没有让你体会，真正的爱是什么。

一直以来我的心意没有变，
依然想陪伴你，
依然想帮你打扫房间，
依然想陪你散心，
一开始怎么样，现在也一样。
只是这一切都在心底。

我的开心，渐渐地不见了。

我的疑惑，越来越多了。

我的位置在哪里？

我有那么小到看不见吗？

唉。事过境迁，人事已非。

不知道，我真的不知道。

恶魔，不要来找我，不要吞噬我。

不要再。让我难过。

像是做梦一样， 我仿佛从梦里回到了现实。
一切还是像从前一样。

writing this entry I do not mean to say anything bad to canada. But in fact, yes, i am going to.
From the beginning of my journey to Canada till now, bad things do happen, and i do forget it so quickly. But think back, Canada, the country said to be safe and reliable..is not exactly true.
I'm not sure if it's the problem in West Canada, but i'm sure it is not as good as people paradise it.
From my experience,
1) Lost of camera
-obviously this is my own fault to leave my camera behind and got it lost. But if the canadian is honest enough, I could have get back my lovely camera from lost and found center.

2) Nearly cant get back to Calgary from US
-they don't believe me in what i said about the visa. A small chop that allows me to go US Canada thro and flow within half year.

3) West jet
-No refund of canceled booking. Well, this is my fault as i din read the terms and conditions well.

4) Outdoor activities rental
-deposit will be forfeited if i cancel a trip. Well done.

5) Camera
-camera again. No refund on camera i bought.
This is a long story. I bought it by confirming verbally with the sales prsn that there is international warranty for the camera. But it is not. The warranty is only for US Canada. Limited.
But the funniest thing is, he refuse me to refund, in fact refund policy is a big thing in Canada. Almost anywhere anything u buy can get a refund back. It's a consumer's right in Canada.
But this shop, this prsn, doesnt want to abide the law. Even after long hours of debating.
And I would think that he cheated me cuz he knows i'm not local.

So..western country safer? Not really. They too have the dark side. I would say, it's like the same thing it will happen in everywhere, be it Malaysia, India, China or western countries.
So. u get wat i mean? Labelling is just labelling. LOL
It's human heart that is the same. Everywhere.

听着曹格的《丑角》仿佛听见你的心声。
因为曾经经历，所以特别有共鸣吗？
而是我，让你成了丑角吗？